Sorry there hasnt been any art. I really have not been in the mood to draw. Nothing much to report, uni is going well, im enjoying it more than i thought. I picked pretty easy classes too so, im not doing too bad at it.

Lexi, the one good thing in my life atm is going great,im spending a lot of money on her buying her new things, you will be happy to know she is putting on weight, and is getting more eager with every day. We also found out she is a old race horse, her show name is Lady in Red which suits her so perfectly.

In proberly 2 weeks i will get my camera i have been waiting a year for. I could have brought it in a single pay check in the summer, but its always been pushed behind other things. So i have decided to get a Nikon d60, and il start buying lenses and when nikon makes some really big jumps in its cameras i will upgrade. Cause basicly i need to cheer myself up and i have waited a year for this so fuck it.

Work is ok, a little disheartening, i put in so many extra hours i come in when they need me in, i always work really hard, and yet somebody else is getting promoted to manager, when that person doesnt work as hard as me. Its a real big piss off, and it makes me want to say fuck mcdonalds, but a lot of my friends work there and its a fun job, so i think il just endure it.

So i have been dating my boyfriend for 4 and a half years, 4 of those have been long distance. I really love him, but yesterday i couldnt take the distance anymore so i ended it. I am so upset, i really love him and the only reason i ended it, was because of the distance. And im beginning to think its the worst decision of my life.
I just hate myself so much, i love him more than i can bare, and now ive let him go.


It pisses me off, that some people have such a easy relationship and still find reasons to break it up. I am 3700 miles away from my boyfriend i love him so much. I have never cheated on him, i have never wanted to cheat on him. And yet some people cant stop themselves on cheating. You have it so easy dont fuck it up cause you cant keep your genitals in your trousers. For fuck sake. Hmm sorry the point im trying to make is, you guys have it so easy, and you take it for granted. Treasure every second with your loved one, whether its sitting on the sofa watching tv. I got to do that with Jay 2 times a year, and i am angry i do not remember each and every second. Because its those things that mean the most.



And no im not excited it wont let me change the mood.

So for the past week, my sister and i have been looking to buy a horse. So our first prospect was a $800 regular horse she sounded perfect, so we arranged a meeting i got off work early we drove to the meeting point. And then called them up this was at quatre to seven, she responds by telling us she had sold the horse yesterday, and that she sent us a email telling us that she had sold it. She had sent the email 10 minuites before we called. As you can imagine we were livid.

But now i am glad we didnt get to see that other horse, cause now i can quite happily say we found a much better horse. Her name is Lexi and she is chestnut thourabred. 16h high and 12 years old. She's sadly been mistreted for a long time until she got to the previous owner who has had her since june. The stable she was at before the previous owner, was in ontario and the stable became bankrupt so they did not feed the horses. As you can imagine, she is very, very skiny, but excellant temperment, with lots of spirit. So how could we not help her bring her back to the glory she is supposed to look like.

I will post photos soon proberly tomorrow as that is when we will be seeing her next.

I have waited 16 years for a horse, and now i finally have one without my parents help, this is my sisters and my horse. It was not brought for us, which is why i think she will be all the more special to us.

As for the drawing side, i have a wonderful new laptop, and lovely new tablet, but not enough hard drive to use the scratch disks to draw soooo, i need a external hard drive which will take some weeks as i am still paying for the horse. However i will be posting things out of my sketch book if i can save them onto the hard drive. I seriously have like 50mb left lol.

Photography, well with this paycheck i was going to buy a nikon d60 but obviously i am bone dry now, so new camera will have to wait. I will be posting photos of Lexi, with my dads camera, but it would have been nice to use my own (oh well).

Anyway i hope your summer has been awesome and i hope you are looking forward to another school year, or busting your ass at full time employment.

So, my dad brought a new printer which was great i made sure it had a scanner. BUT... because we are still on windows 2000, the scanner wont scan anything and send it to the computer so its useless to me. And my dad being the genius he is threw out the old one. That plus the fact my tablet receptors arnt working properly so i have a large diagonal scratch going right through it which i cant work on. That plus the fact photoshop isnt working on my desktop is pissing my off. So i have no working tablet and no scanner. Im getting so bored of drawing with a pencil.

So you will be not seeing art from me for a very long time.